My struggle with swimming continues

Today I want to use the blog and update on my swimming. Why? Because I am still struggling. I want to put this blog up because I want to look back at this when I finally master swimming freestyle.

I started swimming lessons back in July 2021. I went to the lessons once a week since that month. I missed a few lessons but I have been consistent. In spite of being consistent, I have had a very difficult time.
Initially, my struggles were fear of the water in general. Learning to swim as an adult is tougher than as a kid. I had this fear of water and drowning. That was the first barrier. After getting used to that I had to get used to being comfortable in the water and learn how to float.
Finally, when I was able to float properly it was about the kicks and finally the arm movements. I have been practicing them regularly almost 4 times a month. But my body still has a hard time getting used to swimming. My kicks aren’t that great which doesn’t help my strokes when trying to swim. I have made improvements in being able to swim freestyle, but I still can’t get it all together. I can swim as long as I can hold my breath but I struggle to add breathing to my kicks and strokes. I also get tired too easily in the water.
All these made me really frustrated today. I was thinking that I should have learned swimming as a kid. But the truth is I can’t do that now. I can't go back and change it. It sucks seeing a 60+-year-old grandma in the same swimming lesson as me doing great. Good for her but good for my confidence.
Enough venting. Honestly, I am not actually that frustrated. Because I have a vision and I can see myself mastering swimming. The day I do that is the day I come back to this blog.